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Today I don’t have much thing to talk about me.. Cause my daily life almost is the same.. But today I have a story about a girl.. This story start with a girl that is friendly and she have many types of attitudes.. Different places, she shows different attitudes, as in the way she behave herself in different situations.. She have pass through quite a lot of things.. Maybe she hasn’t pass through all yet because she is still young.. There’s plenty of things in front of her life that she wouldn’t know when will it happen.. But she is strong and dare to face no matter what is the situations.. Maybe from outlooks she seems to be strong.. But inside her real heart sometimes she may still feel afraid and cry alone.. When she is 4 years old, that’s the year that she do have a lots of fun and also 1 sad memory.. She is still the only child when she is 4 years old.. So, her parents love her very much and give her everything she wants, and the sad memory is, that’s the 1^st year her dad beaten her, and that’s the 1^st and last time in her life that her dad beat her.. That’s also the 1^st year she went to Genting with her parents and her uncle.. she remember every single things that she have done in that year.. After that she is also known as a smart and clever girl.. No matter what happen, she is still calm to face the situation.. Maybe when she tell out the real story of her family background no one could believe her, so till now she didn’t tell any of her friends about her real background.. But the thing she past is not a simple things or simple life.. She met a lot of things that not every child like her age would met and could bravely face it like her.. She still feel warm in her family and she still have the feelings of being care and loved in family when she is 4 years old.. After 9 years, everything change, her life changed! It’s from good to bad.. when she is 13 years old which means she is form 1.. She felt different from her family.. She couldn’t feel the feelings that she use to have it.. She feel that everything must be independent.. So start from that year, she is different, more independent and there’s many things happen to her, in relation, in study, in family and all kind of things also.. Her study getting worst and she pass through all kind of relations.. What ever things she have pass through she will tell one of her best friend, close god sis.. But sometimes not everything that she tell her because she scared that her god sis will betray her and tell out her secret, so sometimes she keep it to herself.. Others might think that she is bad or evil person, but she don’t care.. She do what she likes and be who she is.. Some peoples feel afraid or dislike her but she don’t know what’s the reason.. Her life once again has a big changes when she is in form 3, end of form 3 her life changed.. The biggest changes that she felt.. She have to leave all her friends, school and everything.. She knows that once she left, everything will changed and she won’t have a true friends, best friends or god sis anymore.. Everything gonna be a dream for her.. But no point, she don’t have a choice to make.. She is forced to follow her parents decision.. Her best friends and god sis promise her that they will stay the same and never changed! She knows that’s a lie, and she ask her mom and aunt, “Is there a true and forever friends?” both of them tell her that there’s no true or forever friends.. But till the last, she still wanna take a chance to trust her friends words.. She think that they can be count on.. But unexpected finally she realize that all is fake, included the person she trust the most.. She saw their real face, and she’s not sure whether she should feel regret or not.. Maybe there’s nothing for her to regret because that time she don’t have a choice to choose.. She always been so lonely after she left all her things, day and night also doing the same things.. She feel that her life should change a bit, but not friends, she’s really so sad that she lost all her friends.. She have made some changes in her study.. She get a better grades than last time, but just because of getting better grades, she lost all her friends that used to share things with her, make joke with her and so on.. She don’t know whether she should be happy or not.. But she always think that the God is unfair.. Why she can only choose one? She change everything into good deed.. But there’s many things she have to left it.. She realize that when she have her friends and god sis, she wouldn’t have her studies.. But if she chooses studies, then her friends all must be vanished! Does her friends neither look nor sounds like an evil? Why? Day and night she always ask why? If there’s one day she have the chance to go back and stay with her friends, her decision and answer is NO, she won’t.. Cause even she go back, there’s no more meaning to her.. Her friends and surroundings all changed.. What can she do if she goes back? What will she get? She always laugh and sometimes shows no worries to her friends.. But when she laughs, who knows that she is crying? No one understand her.. She have a difficult life.. And it’s a big disappointment that one of her classmate betray her.. Tell out all her secrets that her classmate promise to help her keep. But after she leave, she knew that her classmate will betray her.. Though she is still young, but the things she feel and see it’s like an adult.. So don’t try to cheat her or lie to her.. She don’t speak a word doesn’t mean that she don’t know what is happening around her and also doesn’t mean that she can’t see.. She sees everything that happening.. Only others don’t know that she is watching and hearing what’s going on.. She really feel that her life is getting tough.. One year tough than one year.. She also hope that she can really pass through all the things that she should pass through cause it’s arranged by the God.. She couldn’t change the fact and her fate.. The end!