The 5 days..

Finally today I don’t need to go to work.. I’m so tired.. These few days happen quite many things that I didn’t write out and also didn’t update my blog.. Let’s start from


30.03.2009(Monday)
I didn’t go to school and went to CGL for a while to see my friends and pass them letter cause I receive their letter on Fri. and Sat.. Then if I pass it to the postmen it will take quite a long time.. So I straight pass it to them cause on mon I’m going back to penang to pray my grandparents.. We went out so fucking early, it’s 7 something in the morning, I thought I’m not going to school so I get to sleep later.. Who knows, also have to wake up so early.. So my mom fetch two of my brothers to school then we straight go out.. I didn’t know that early in the morning Penang Bridge also will jam and there’s police checking motor so early.. Then I feel so sleepy and I sleep in car till reach Penang.. The 1st place we go is pasar “ban san”.. haha..xD.. Went there to buy fruits and also eat.. After that go to CGL.. I was so rush cause my mom say she is in a rush.. so I also quickly go.. So many peoples in the field cause they are training for the marching thingy, I saw Tasha 1st and I ask her does she know where is Chingy and Jas? Cause I tot they join marching to.. But they didn’t..It was the day before sports day, their sports day on Tuesday.. Too bad I couldn’t attend cause Tuesday I have too many important subjects.. So I cannot absent.. Hope my friends won’t angry.. lolx.. After I run up and down only I saw them.. While I walk pass the field I saw BUMPY BOOPS! She look at me but I ignore.. haha.. She still join marching but now running anymore.. Maybe she knows she help her house to win any prizes.. haha.. After found them and pass them letter and give them a hugs then I went back d.. We straight go pray my grandmother together with my aunty.. After that we go back to our Penang house to take a rest and bath then SLEEP.. So tired! Then till afternoon only we go back to BM.. Then at night I have to go my working place to help my GM then only he sent me back..


31.03.2009(Tuesday)
Nothing much happen on Tuesday, just that don’t know why I’m always in a bad mood and feel like scolding people.. That’s why I avoid from talking to people cause I know myself and know my temper too.. I feel quite bored on that day and also feel sad… don’t know why my life like that.. Do I look like I’m living in a fucking life? Who should I blame? Me myself? Parents? God? It’s impossible for me to blame on anyone cause it’s not our fault whereas it’s fate.. I don’t know whether we can change our fate or not.. But I’m trying to.. Still failed.. Feeling disappointed and speechless.. I sit down and refresh all the things I’ve done and all the things that others taught me.. And I slowly think and differentiate all the things whether it’s right or wrong.. And maybe most of the things is wrong more than right.. I don’t know why.. But this is the answer I get.. I feel that I don’t have anyone to concern.. even my parents not too.. Even they concern it’s only for few minutes and that’s it.. * Sigh *


01.04.2009(Wednesday)
April fool day! Hey hey, did anyone fool u? Lolx.. I didn’t.. Know why? Cause the fool that my friends trying to fool me it’s so fake.. So I knew it and I don’t feel funny anymore cause the things they say doesn’t make sense at all.. Unlike last time.. Never mind I won’t think back all past stuff cause it’s already a pass and it’s like a dream to me cause till now I also don’t know what the hell am I doing.. And I don’t know who am I too. Ridiculous right? Lolx.. There’s something that I feel funny is early in the morning when I’m in school, 1 of my friend asked me, “hey when is april fool?” I answered her, “it’s today la, dumb”.. Then she asked me again, “What is april fool? What does it mean?”.. Know what I tell her? “Speechless”.. haha.. This is the ever 1st time people ask me this question.. And I don’t know what’s in her mind.. She’s older than me 1 year but her thinking it’s like when I’m standard 4.. Sometimes talk to her also feel suffocate cause her brain work damn slows! Haha..xD


02.04.2009(Thursday)
Today I realize something.. Maybe all the things I’ve did after I leave Penang, some of my friends will think that I changed.. And I also feel that they changed.. And finally today I know that one of them didn’t changed and I misunderstand her life.. I’m here to say “sorry, my dear friend..” I didn’t know that she didn’t changed and she felt so unhappy all the time.. Many things happen to her which I don’t know cause we less contact.. Besides sending letter, we don’t really chat in msn nor sms.. And today I talked to her in msn only I get to know.. Maybe there’s 1 question u asked me I answer you that you are my 1st best friend.. But to let you know.. I’m sorry that after I leave penang I feel that I don’t have anyone to trust.. Try to imagine, I don’t even trust my family members, how am I going to trust friends? In add, there are friends that betrayed me and they thought I don’t know.. They think I’m dumb! Let you know, I’M NOT! I’m smarter than your ass or your brain! You’re going to 1st class or 3rd class it’s your fault.. Make sure you can afford it.. Don’t lose like a chicken lost their v*****…haha…watch out your mouth.. Don’t just simply blah people stuff out like a chicken ass mouth…so stinks! Everyone have their own secrets and they tell to someone that they trust.. So that person who gets to listen others secret, after listening just shut your mouth! Don’t spread everywhere..


03.04.2009(Friday)
Today I didn’t go to work after school cause over tired.. Don’t know why I feel my daily life also so tired and didn’t get enough sleep.. *Sigh*..This afternoon I clean up my room and house too.. Then wash my school shoes and shirts and all housework.. Then after that I straight online for 1 whole day.. play games and so on.. Till 6 something suddenly feel so hungry.. so I cooked instant noodle to eat then go in my room again and continue playing online games.. I feel so freaking cold.. Cause it’s raining.. And I still on my air-cond for whole afternoon.. *Freezing*.. then I download something and installing some software.. That software take more than 3 hours to install.. Then I was lying down on my bed just to take some rest.. I didn’t want to sleep cause thinking to sleep early tonight.. but end up.. I straight fall asleep till 9 something my dad come back and he wake me up but I still continue sleeping.. Too tired.. And so bad luck.. I wake up on 12 in the midnight.. Feeling so energetic.. Don’t know what to do.. Online again and continue playing games.. Then drink milk too.. Cause there’s no more food in the kitchen.. Till 2something midnight… I start to blog… which is now.. blog all this things until 3something then going to continue play games again and then only sleep.. Tomorrow got to go work.. So
everyone good night.. Love ya.. mwahx..