unpredictable: all types of feeling..

The feelings of happiness, surprise, disgust, confused, mad, sad, glad, anger, pressure, frustrated and changing mood appear in this two weeks. I don’t know where to start cause it’s gonna be long story if I write all out. I realize that everyone in this world will have their problems, whether is a big problem or small problem. There must be a problem for every human to face with. No one will live with a non-problem life. Even baby will have problem. Their feelings we don’t know. Cause they only know how to laugh and cry to express their feelings. When they cry, that means so many things. It can be hungry, not feeling well or more. How are we supposed to face our problem? Depends on ourselves. Cause I trust that if a person have true heart to fight over the problems. Sure can be solved. But some people are the type that when hurt once nothing but can’t be heart for many times. It will stay there forever. Maybe I’m that type of person. I face too many problems. It’s getting worst day-by-day. Till I’m lost and don’t know what to do anymore. In front of me is a shit also I don’t know, cause I can’t see things in front of me. Last time I can see what I want for the next day and my future. But now I don’t know where am I suppose to go anymore. Left or right, front or back? I don’t know. Maybe others will think that I’m so negative and few of them asked me before this, “where is the old me?” I don’t know how to answer cause I really don’t know where is the old “me” gone. Is she dead? I don’t know. Before this I chat with one of my friend that having problem with h** family too. Just because of a small matter. I don’t understand why they can’t appreciate people in front of them and why didn’t they appreciate the time. Time is more worth than a gold. Gold can be lose cause it can get back anytime but time once fade away, no matter what you do also can’t get it back. Still the same word I will say which is don’t make a decision that you will feel regret. Trust me! I’m still clear with some stuff though I feel lost. I feel so glad that I have few friends that really concern about me and they showed me that they love me. I’m here to tell them I love them too. But the way I are right now it’s the fact, I don’t think I can turn into the old “me” anymore. Maybe they will feel disappointed to hear this, I’m sorry.

Exam is around the corner. dear friends, have you all started studying? If didn’t quickly start. We don’t have much time left to read so many things and this exam is so important. So Gambateh ya! Yin here wish everyone good luck. May god bless you! XD

Boyfriend? Lolx. Do you know why am I in this title? I also don’t know why. I have good feeling with someone. Not only one but more. What am I thinking right now? What feelings am I having right now? Who can tell me? The way they look tells me that they have feeling too or not? I’m so frustrated. I have been keeping it for so many months. Though I have feelings towards them but I don’t want any relation right now. I know that it will be my additional problem if I’m in a relation and it will affect my studies. So I don’t want to be in any relation. What am I suppose to do? Crazy…!

From last month till this month so many peoples birthday. Inside my blog also so many types of cake pictures. Every of the cake we bought also taste delicious. On last Saturday is my younger brother birthday. We celebrate at home only cause we are so tired to go outside eat. So we just buy some food and come back to celebrate. I ordered a cake for him. The piggy cake is so nice and delicious. All thanks to Swens. Next month we still have so many peoples birthday. My brother seems so happy when we sing birthday song for him and we took few pictures of him.