about......

Today I don’t have much thing to talk about me.. Cause my daily life almost is the same.. But today I have a story about a girl.. This story start with a girl that is friendly and she have many types of attitudes.. Different places, she shows different attitudes, as in the way she behave herself in different situations.. She have pass through quite a lot of things.. Maybe she hasn’t pass through all yet because she is still young.. There’s plenty of things in front of her life that she wouldn’t know when will it happen.. But she is strong and dare to face no matter what is the situations.. Maybe from outlooks she seems to be strong.. But inside her real heart sometimes she may still feel afraid and cry alone.. When she is 4 years old, that’s the year that she do have a lots of fun and also 1 sad memory.. She is still the only child when she is 4 years old.. So, her parents love her very much and give her everything she wants, and the sad memory is, that’s the 1^st year her dad beaten her, and that’s the 1^st and last time in her life that her dad beat her.. That’s also the 1^st year she went to Genting with her parents and her uncle.. she remember every single things that she have done in that year.. After that she is also known as a smart and clever girl.. No matter what happen, she is still calm to face the situation.. Maybe when she tell out the real story of her family background no one could believe her, so till now she didn’t tell any of her friends about her real background.. But the thing she past is not a simple things or simple life.. She met a lot of things that not every child like her age would met and could bravely face it like her.. She still feel warm in her family and she still have the feelings of being care and loved in family when she is 4 years old.. After 9 years, everything change, her life changed! It’s from good to bad.. when she is 13 years old which means she is form 1.. She felt different from her family.. She couldn’t feel the feelings that she use to have it.. She feel that everything must be independent.. So start from that year, she is different, more independent and there’s many things happen to her, in relation, in study, in family and all kind of things also.. Her study getting worst and she pass through all kind of relations.. What ever things she have pass through she will tell one of her best friend, close god sis.. But sometimes not everything that she tell her because she scared that her god sis will betray her and tell out her secret, so sometimes she keep it to herself.. Others might think that she is bad or evil person, but she don’t care.. She do what she likes and be who she is.. Some peoples feel afraid or dislike her but she don’t know what’s the reason.. Her life once again has a big changes when she is in form 3, end of form 3 her life changed.. The biggest changes that she felt.. She have to leave all her friends, school and everything.. She knows that once she left, everything will changed and she won’t have a true friends, best friends or god sis anymore.. Everything gonna be a dream for her.. But no point, she don’t have a choice to make.. She is forced to follow her parents decision.. Her best friends and god sis promise her that they will stay the same and never changed! She knows that’s a lie, and she ask her mom and aunt, “Is there a true and forever friends?” both of them tell her that there’s no true or forever friends.. But till the last, she still wanna take a chance to trust her friends words.. She think that they can be count on.. But unexpected finally she realize that all is fake, included the person she trust the most.. She saw their real face, and she’s not sure whether she should feel regret or not.. Maybe there’s nothing for her to regret because that time she don’t have a choice to choose.. She always been so lonely after she left all her things, day and night also doing the same things.. She feel that her life should change a bit, but not friends, she’s really so sad that she lost all her friends.. She have made some changes in her study.. She get a better grades than last time, but just because of getting better grades, she lost all her friends that used to share things with her, make joke with her and so on.. She don’t know whether she should be happy or not.. But she always think that the God is unfair.. Why she can only choose one? She change everything into good deed.. But there’s many things she have to left it.. She realize that when she have her friends and god sis, she wouldn’t have her studies.. But if she chooses studies, then her friends all must be vanished! Does her friends neither look nor sounds like an evil? Why? Day and night she always ask why? If there’s one day she have the chance to go back and stay with her friends, her decision and answer is NO, she won’t.. Cause even she go back, there’s no more meaning to her.. Her friends and surroundings all changed.. What can she do if she goes back? What will she get? She always laugh and sometimes shows no worries to her friends.. But when she laughs, who knows that she is crying? No one understand her.. She have a difficult life.. And it’s a big disappointment that one of her classmate betray her.. Tell out all her secrets that her classmate promise to help her keep. But after she leave, she knew that her classmate will betray her.. Though she is still young, but the things she feel and see it’s like an adult.. So don’t try to cheat her or lie to her.. She don’t speak a word doesn’t mean that she don’t know what is happening around her and also doesn’t mean that she can’t see.. She sees everything that happening.. Only others don’t know that she is watching and hearing what’s going on.. She really feel that her life is getting tough.. One year tough than one year.. She also hope that she can really pass through all the things that she should pass through cause it’s arranged by the God.. She couldn’t change the fact and her fate.. The end!

raining day..still a fun day...

yesterday night we went to eat "chu char".. it taste delicious.. wanna take picture but don't have the chance.. not even one picture.. sobx.. it's because my uncle and aunt there all so i "pai seh" to take and scared later they don't like it.. then after the dinner, we went back home to eat the cake that my aunt brought from penang.. taste delicious.. it's a fruit cake.. inside the cake fill with longan and lychee.. the cream taste good, not too sweet and all i can say is DELICIOUS..mmm..nyam nyam!! then after that i talk with my mom for a while, and we plan for each person's birthday.. cause coming down is my aunt and my youngest bro on April, then me, 2nd bro, god mom and my mom is on may, after that still got a lots.. we have already plan how to celebrate d.. hope that really can follow how we planned.. every time also the plan that we have plan properly will be destroyed.. so i hope this year won't.. hmm.. after chatting with my mom for a while, then i watch movie till 3 something.. feel so damn tired this morning.. then once I'm in my working place.. i straight online.. and after that my mom says that she wants to online.. i let her online and go to aside to take a nap.. i sleep not even more than 1 hour.. when i wake up, my neck so pain.. then i feel so sleepy and wanna sleep some more.. but my neck is too pain d, so i can't sleep.. i ask my mom to let me use the Internet again, so now I'm blogging.. just now i go search some quotes that is real meaningful.. to me it's really so meaningful.. but to others i don't know lo.. so i have post it in my blog.. it's a beautiful and meaningful quotes..


the box..



the cake my aunt bought..

my dad with my youngest bro..

that's all for today.. byes.

real life..

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burfday day!!

Hey guys, yesterday I also don’t know whether is it a happy day or anger day.. yesterday is me and my mom’s off day.. so we didn’t go work and in the morning I went out with few friends.. we go take our lunch then only go shopping for a while then they sent me back in the afternoon.. when I went back home, I have a very big argument with my bro and had a real big fight and I straight go in my room lock the door and I sleep.. actually before this we already plan to go out celebrate my dad’s birthday which is today.. here to wish my dad, “happy birthday, DADDY!” lolx.. hmm then because of I’m too angry so I don’t want to go.. but in the evening my mom knock my room till I wake up.. and she say quickly get ready and we are going to bkt tambun eat.. then I tell her I don’t want to go because I don’t want to see my irritating bro face! I hate him like hell!! But end up my mom say have to go.. and also is because of my dad’s birthday that’s why only I go.. if not guarantee I won’t follow them.. so we went to (Prawn Village, Bukit Tambun).. and we order and I took some pictures too, but there’s 1 picture that I didn’t take all because of my irritating bro, when they serve to the table, he straight use his spoon to take the lobster d.. so I didn’t take cause it’s already a mess, even take d also not nice..




1st..



2nd..favourite drink!! c-o-c-o-n-u-t!!



3rd..delicious taufu! there's 3 type... but i love the cube wan only!



4th..oyster! mwahx..love it! it's cold, sour and hot!



5th..fish..average.. also quite like it..hmm..



6th..broccoli with 3 diff types of mushrooms..



7th..is the lobster that destroyed by my bro..

lastly..crab! it's taste normal.. not really taste good cause don't have any sauce..




And after that I feel quite happy! Haha.. the food there makes me feel happy.. is it true?? Lolx.. just crap only la.. is my mood good back.. then after that we went back home and I watch movie till morning only sleep for few hours then wake up and go work… today is my dad’s real birthtday, so we plan to buy him cake, and I don’t know where they have a cake that is taste nice so I walk out to buy few slices of cake to try the taste, I walk out and come back it takes half hour, so me and my mom try the cake.. who knows? The cake taste bluek.. it’s like Chinese says (ciak liao ai owl) haha.. taste so terrible.. so I asked my mom, how?? The cake taste so terrible, I prefer penang’s cake.. taste much better than here.. so my mom say the only way is ask my aunt to buy here cause she stay in penang ma.. then I say she wouldn’t come here just to buy cake for us to celebrate with my dad.. end up, we plan to treat her then ask her to buy cake for us.. so I skype her and ask her to buy cake here to celebrate my dad’s birthday then we treat her dinner.. oh yes!! She say ok, no problem! I’m so happy to hear that! Haha..xD.. so after work, we are going to eat something good again.. haha.. really feel so happy la.. till I don’t know what else can I say! Haha..xD.. oh ya, my dear friends, this year I will go back penang to celebrate my birthday, and this coming 11th april is my Chinese date birthday, so I plan to go back penang and meet few friends to celebrate, and I only want to drink.. see la, whoever that still treat me as a friend can also come and join.. I’ll wait for you guys.. on may birthday I still don’t have plan yet.. cause now I guess there’s no more friends that will remember when is my birthday and they won’t plan for me anymore.. that ‘s the fact that I really learn.. no true friends, no real friends, no forever friends. Same to god sis.. everyone is the same!



too bored.. so took some pictures..

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the end..
loves, yin..

misery life!

Wow.. guess what? Last night I dream of something that are very scary but not ghost.. is something that I unexpected it will happen so I don’t want this dream to be reality.. it is something about my friend betraying me and. ……….lots more! After wake up also feel the scary-ness.. friends cannot be trusted.. included my family members.. I don’t know who to trust cause everyone beside me changing their attitude and style.. maybe I’m changing too.. so I don’t want to give any comment to anyone about their new style.. whether is good or bad also I don’t give a damn on it! I care of myself and I know what I’m doing here and right now is correct and sure I won’t regret, that’s it! Honestly every time I laugh also in my heart it’s like crying.. I don’t know why am I living in this kind of feelings.. seems like very hard for me to be really happy.. who knows that I’m sad? Only ME! Cause everyone is busy with their life and no one concern about me.. fine.. and there’s something that I really dislike about one of my friend.. maybe she knew about it but she continue so I also don’t care.. I don’t want to see or listen.. it’s her choice.. she knew that I dislike but she still insist to do.. so I can’t do anything.. sometimes there’s many things that I don’t want to see and listen.. though I act that I didn’t see it but I still can hear.. I only got 1 pair of hand which is right hand and left hand.. I can’t close my ears and eyes at the same time… all I can do is only pretend that I didn’t see and hear.. and of course I need to shut my mouth too.. to avoid anything that shouldn’t happen.. I’m like so speechless about all my friends around me.. I don’t know when they are real and don’t know when they are telling lies.. but sometimes I’m still clear with their attitude and their mind.. I’m still smart enough to think even though I’m like lost or maybe in a misery life.. so don’t try to lie me! I didn’t speak or take any action doesn’t mean I don’t know.. and there’s many things that I hate to see when you did it! Especially PICTURES!

y wanna ask why..

F***ing day! I don’t know why today suddenly I recall all the things that have already happened.. quite disappointed that one of my friend back stab me and changing story behind me, but I don’t give a damn on it.. because since the day what had happened and what I find out from her, I already don’t trust her and also know that she can’t be trusted.. she’s a liar! She’s fake all the time! Never mind, all I want her to know is just be yourself.. if you hate me then don’t pretend to be my best friend or sis.. I don’t want a god sis that is fake and I don’t need too! But remember what’s the consequences.. just to remind you, y0u’ll feel suffer if you act.. so just be the way you are. Doesn’t need to act like clever and etc.. that’s all about you. Hmm another thing is I saw 1 guy in my school, he is exactly the same look with my ex bf.. it makes me think of the things that I’ve past through with my ex.. tho it give me a memory but I don’t love him anymore! And the guy in my school looks better than him. *no offense*..*sigh* why la everyone beside me also lying to me. Tho I know d but I just act don’t know because I’m very clear since the day I move to bm.. I knew that once I step out from pg I’ll never have true friends. And I can’t share things with them.. coz I believe that things change, people change.. it’s true.. if you didn’t try you wouldn’t trust.. I asked my mom before this, is it true? And my mom answered me “yea, it’s true.. when you leave your friendship will stop here and there will be plenty of things that you don’t know and maybe their words to you wouldn’t be the real ones.” Now I finally trust, I’ve observe everything that already happened! Yea, it’s so true till I can’t believe. One of my god sis told me before that out friendship will never changed no matter where’d I go.. but now I don’t think it’s real anymore! Maybe we will just turned into normal friends.. few more years later maybe we forget each other.. but I seriously don’t hope all this things happen.. I don’t know when or what is it gonna happen.. all I can do is just let it be lo.. I’ve see through all kind of things and now I learn to study more than caring all the friendship problems that happened around me.. I guess this is an absolutely right decision that I ever make in my life!
*my dear friend~ if after you read this and you feel anger, I’m sorry.*
Few pics that I should upload early but didn’t.. so now gonna upload.. here you go! Tata.. loves.


the heart from chingy..thx..



chingy's gave me as a present..iloveyou! hope can get a bigger bear this year..haha..






greenish!















mr. digi's big mug!









buu buu bak bak *blue blue black black*xD

saturday, working day!

Hmm, today as usual wake up in the morning and then go to work.. Feel so tired cause yesterday watch movie till late night, so when my mom wake me up time, I feel lazy to go work.. lolx..too long didn’t go to work d gua.. so just wake up and bath then go work.. then 1st thing I’ve done of course is online la.. what else.. lolx.. then go check my friendster account and others account too, and I receive 2++ msgs.. read and delete till *ki siao*.. haha.. then after that go buy lunch to eat then again continue online.. and finally saw my sis online, so chat with her for a while then she got to go church, so we stop chatting.. almost one week didn’t chat with her and I guess 1 month + didn’t see her d.. miss her so much.. hmm then now I’m writing for my blog then after this gonna watch movie again.. before this everyday study.. study for 3 weeks.. then now gonna be everyday watching movie.. but by april will less watch movie d.. cause got to prepare for my exam on May.. don’t know why today feel so happy, good mood and free, and yesterday night I feel so different.. know why? It’s because during exam time everyday also I study from afternoon till night then only sleep but yesterday I watch movie from afternoon till night.

the last day!!! huuray!!

Whee!! Yeppie yeepie doo!!! I’m so happy!! Feel like shouting out loudly!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahhahaha….*sounds insane right?* lolx.. never mind la.. as long as I’m happy can d! hmm finally today is the last day of exam!! Feel so relax d!! at least I get to rest for few days then only continue work on for my coming exam! Today exam was great!! Just that don’t know how’s my maths la.. but commerce really is ok to me, only the objective part I’m not sure about few question.. today after exam, we straight go back, I don’t know why I feel so happy, all the while I’m walking to the gate with my friends, I’m smiling.. they keep looking at me as in a weird type and asked me why am I smiling? Lolx.. then I say no la, finally I have finish my exam.. haha..xD.. besides exam, there’s also another thing, I get my phone d.. damn the Mr. XXX confiscate my phone and finally get back!! So nothing much d la.. get to rest for one week.. *laughing*.. but also don’t really get much rest la.. cause nowadays broke d.. half month didn’t go to work.. tomorrow onwards got to go work to earn some $$.. I’m planning to go back to penang.. but I don’t know when cause I don’t really have time to go back my sweet and lovely hometown!! However, I’ll still arrange my time to go back and OF COURSE go find my friends to hang out especially one of them that gonna leave on july.., so guys got to wait for me ya, I’ll be coming back soon.. like last time what we said, “I’m arriving, I’m arriving”.. haha..xD.. hmm today extremely excited and energetic!! Not feeling tired or sleepy d… hmm.. I’m waiting for my mom to change my streamyx line then I can online at home d!! don’t know when that lady only wants to do for me!! Wait till my neck also as long as the giraffe neck d.. haiyo.. will be till here 1st here.. wanna watch movie d.. continue tomorrow or some other time.. okay?? *of course okay la, if not what else??* tata my dear sweetie, mwhax,…

the 3rd day...

Why why why?? Why is it so unfair? Today I’ve get my science mark.. maybe I should be satisfied with it.. but I don’t know why I’m not.. teacher says that got 10 ppl get above 80 and I’m not in the list so it’s okay I don’t mind.. I just get less than them few marks only.. the problem that I’m not satisfied it’s because the people that get 80 above, they copy!! I hate people that copy during exam!! They make notes on their table, asking friends and so on.. and this is the way they score above 80.. I’m sure that the teacher knows that students talking and copying.. but the teacher didn’t take any action.. what school is this? Is this the way the score a better grades?? When I know my marks, my science teacher know that I’m sad, maybe I expect better than this la.. then she ask me to try in my mid-year exam.. but I’m wondering, if mid-year also they copy and making notes on their table, then no difference, they are not using their brain and to them this is not a test!! Maybe they don’t understand what’s the meaning of test.. one of my friend that sit beside me, she’s one of them that copy during exam and making notes, she get 80 above, then she come and talk to me, “haiyo, don’t need to be sad la, if I didn’t copy also I won’t get such a good marks, so spm sure you will win me”, and I just shut up and thinking, if you are really smarter than me and you get above 80, I wouldn’t feel angry, but this is not your real work, I feel like complaining to the PK.. I told my mom about it and she also wants to find my school PK.. another way is she also thinking to help me to transfer my school again.. not that I don’t like this school, is just that the way they take their exam, all COPY CATS!! Never mind, I’ll stay on and see.. I’ll wait till I can’t stand and I’m so gonna report!! If report d, teachers not taking any action, then I’m going to make a report at the education place.. anyway today my add maths seems so dead, I don’t know how am I going to score in add maths, 3 questions I didn’t do finish!! Haiyo.. si liao la… then I’ve got civic and ACCOUNTS!! I love accounts!! Aahaha… I guess civic and account shouldn’t be a problem to me.. nothing much lo.. and one more thing, after finish doing account, 1 of my friend ask me to show her my ans, I show it to her because at the back people coming to collect the paper, and she says that my answer is wrong d, because she says that her table there got note.. then I straight answer her, “if my answer is wrong also it’s okay, better than you make notes on the table and copy down” .. maybe I’m quite rude, but I really dislike people copy during exam!! Then after that I straight go back without talking to them.. haix.. don’t know why today feel so tired!! After back from school, I cook porridge to eat then bath and straight sleep till 5 something, then only do revision for my next day exam paper which is mathematics and commerce.. commerce shouldn’t be a problem to me, but my maths is a very big problem to me.. ahahaha.. hope that I can do it la.. today’s blog is a little bit too long, maybe because of I’m nagging all about COPY CATS!! Haha..xD..guess I should stop here d.. tata..will continue tomorrow!! (laughing) wee!! So happy, tomorrow is the last day of exam!! Huuray!!!

Love ya!!

the 2nd day...

Highlow…today is my 2nd day of exam….i feel so tired,!! And 1 bad thing happened this morning, which is my alarm didn’t ring and I’m late!! Usually I’ll wake at 6.15 but today I wake at 6.45..i’m late for half hour… I rush till like mad..!! quickly go bath and pack everything then go to school.. luckily I’m not late for school.. don’t know why today so bad luck, while I’m on the way to go in school, I’m so tired and I almost met an accident.. I don’t know why am I walking till go out of the road..when I realize, the motor is so freaking damn near to me!! Really scare me to death!! Haix.. today I’ve got my English and history exam.. my English still ok… my history?? Damn it!! I’m so gonna fail my history.. all the things I’ve studied and hardly memorize it all I forget!! Especially all the names!! So disappointed..haiyo.. nvm la.. don’t really wanna speak about my HISTORY EXAM!! After that we still have Chinese and tamil exam.. but I’m not taking so I just sit down and do my stuff.. whole class I’m the only Chinese that didn’t take the exam.. feel good!! Haha..xD.. less 1 subject, I can relax more.. right? Oh yea, today while they having their Chinese paper and I’m doing my stuff, I opened my bag and I saw something that I really miss it so much.. tho it’s just one small thing but it means a lot to me and bring a lots of memories to me.. know what? I tell you d don’t laugh yea!! It’s smk cgl school badge…ahahaha..XD.. I suddenly think of cgl and think all the memories again.. suddenly think of my last year seating place and how I am when I’m in cgl.. I wish that I got a chance to go there and study again.. or maybe just give me half day time to act as a cgl student and study with all my dearest friends and after sch stay back to go mcd, jg, internet café and of course stay back to run with my dearest Sophia!! Wanna run with Chingy wan, but cannot la, always also lose wan, she run super fast!! Haha.. but this is lal gonna be my imagination only.. I wouldn’t get what I dream.. so sad!! then after that just go back as usual eat and bath and do revision lo…tomorrow I’m having my add maths!! I’m so gonna die soon.. don’t dare to imagine what result will I get.. this school students all quite good in maths.. I guess I’m the only one that is so weak in maths.. haix.. sobx..will tell you guys how is my add maths tomorrow.. ok?? Bye!!

Yin..

updating dead blog..xD

Yin’s blog seems dead huh? Lolx.. its because I didn’t online for 2 more than two weeks d I guess.. know why I din online? Its because my exam coming and I stay at home study. Can’t believe right? Haha..nvm la.. whether u trust or not also I don’t care.. I’ve been schooling for 12 years +.. but this is the 1st year that I try to study seriously and maybe because of my pmr result that is very bad.. it turns me into a very big changes.. I’m afraid of exam and I prepared so early before my exam.. I guess my friends that really know me will think that I’m not yin.. all the time also I study last minute cause I feel study so early also is useless, sure will forget.. in add, I’ll always ask my friends why are you so stress? You should enjoy school life.. exam is not like a ghost.. just do till where you can.. don’t feel stress. End up this year I feel the stress-ness.. I’m afraid and………. I don’t know how to express my feeling.. but that’s the feeling that I never felt before.. and I ended up with fall sick cause over stress.. I went to see doctor and the doctor is so smart.. just ask me few question without checking me and he says that I know you are over stress and you need more rest.. then ask me why I feel stress? My mom ans him maybe because of my exam is around the corner and she study till late night.. and just few question the doctor ask, he says I’ll give you mc and medicine.. you take more rest and relax.. and that cost rm35..just gave me 6tablets of pain killer.. and that’s it.. I wondering what a kind of doctor? Just like chatting with me less than 5minutes and it cost 35bucks? Lolx..it’s ridiculous.. anyway because of too long I didn’t online and didn’t update my blog..i have so many stories to tell..there’ll be very very long story.. will start from 1st day of my exam…enjoy!!

Hmm today is my 1st day of exam. Feel so scared and nervous too. But today’s subject quite easy, not really a problem to me yet. Haha..xD.. today I have bm, moral and science.. hmm can say all are average la.. not really hard and also not really easy.. wanna know whether its easy or not then got to wait for my result and we will see..haha..xD…oh ya, when I take the exam.. it was so surprising!!! Bm school rules are really so much different from cgl.. and the students there are more cute.. before the exam start… they will make a plan with you.. know what plan?? Which is “copying”.. one of my friend ask me, hey later science time you help me ya.. I’ll ask you some question and blah blah blah.. but I tell her I’m sorry, std4 is my last year of copying answer during exam.. I don’t care what they think, maybe they will think I’m so selfish and so on, but I don’t give a damn on it.. I have my style, tho I don’t know how to do the question I rather simply do or just leave blank…why must I copy? If get to copy means that this is not test..right?? hmm another thing is during exam time your bag can be with you.. don’t need to leave your bag outside the class or inside.. so easy right? Haha…xD.. I guess that’s all about school for today.. and oh ya, forgotten something, after I back to home from school, my mom call me and ask me to go to work.. I was like huh?? Why?? I’m still on with my exam.. but my mom keep asking me to go, so I went there.. I’m exactly like an idiot, know why? Because of too long didn’t go to work, and suddenly back to there I don’t know how to do the stuff that usually I do.. and it’s so tiring… I sit there till I fall asleep then wake up d only read my English novel because the next day I’m having English.. write till here… will continue my story tomorrow..see ya..byes!!

Love ya..mwahx…

who am I??

Do I look like I’m very happy?? I start to feel that I don’t know myself and don’t know what kind of life I am passing through. I feel sad, happy, emotional, and jealous and so on. This feeling make my life so dull. Though I feel that after transfer school my studies better and maybe that’s a thing that makes my life bright. But there are only few things that make my life bright whereas many things that make my life dull. I feel the pain-ness like never felt before. Now the entire problem that I have also I don’t know who to tell because I don’t know who can help me. I couldn’t talk to my mom because she seems like don’t care so its wasting time for me to talk to her. My best friends and sis also couldn’t help me cause we are so far from each other. They can give me advice, I’m not the type of person that can’t think and can’t solve my problems. So there’s no use for them to give me advice. If they give me advice I’ll still listen and appreciate every single of their words because I feel so happy to be their neither friends nor sis. Hmm I don’t know why I feel so lost and sometimes emotional too. I love to hide myself. Nowadays besides going to sch and meet sch friends, I didn’t really go out to meet friends. Main reason is because I don’t want to meet anyone. Part of the reason is because I want to study. Hmm, and also nowadays I don’t really likes to go work. Like I said, I don’t like go meet people. I rather stay at home and do housework and other stuff than going out to play. tho sometimes I feel going out is fun but also depends on who I’m going out with. Another bad feeling that I have is 1 of my friend start to change hxx attitude. I don’t really like her new attitude but I can’t do anything cause I believe that she will thinks I changed too. So since the day I move I don’t want to care how my friend’s attitude is anymore because we are all quite far from each other and I can’t change how they are. I’ll be how I am because I also don’t need others to care how I am. So I really don’t know myself since the day I move and I also don’t know how to know myself back. I feel so stress and …………………….in my life!! I hope I can get through these feelings as soon as I can. It’s such a bad pain in life.