17th of november

y'day working as usual..

chit-chat and ...... with friends..

have fun as much as i want..

because of him...he is funny..

never see him feel sad or unhappy before....

how much i wish i could be like him..

suddenly, my mom told me that they want to go back to penang house overnight..

 *surprise*

then i just say okay..

went back..wanna ready to go out..

unfortunately, dont know which part of the car spill oil..

i thought dont need to go already..

but my dad call my uncle to lend us his car..

waited for quite long..

so, start to enjoy my new wine..

oh yea! forget to write out my latest hobby..

which is drinking RED WINE! 

im so addicted to it..

i drink it every night..

and last night i drink a lot..

one bottle...its 2005..not bad..

at least much more better than 2007..*sucks*

im going to try 1999 soon..its at penang's house..

started to drink and listening to my song using my phone connect to the small speaker..

was enjoying that moment..

then vain with the bottle of red wine after drinking a while..

out of sudden, feel very sad and turn to very emo..

no more excited feeling..

maybe because of listening to the songs and it reminds me a lot of stuff..

friends/ex/family and so on..

feel so sad because i dont know what im doing..

i dont even know what i want..

feel so ***king fed-up..

get damn sad..

and end up, finished drinking all...

almost fall asleep while waiting..

but wait till 10something, uncle reached..

so get into the car..

i was like so damn dizzy and all the feeling is still with me..

reached home around 11something..

really dizzy and sad..

but couldn't sleep anymore..

feel like vomiting but didnt..

waited till quite late only sleep...

think a lot while lying down on my bed..

it makes me cry at the end..

i cry for quite long...

release out and then i feel better...

i dont know what should i do to changed my life..

i've been chatting w/old friends included my ex..

i just hope to move on my life..

but I CAN'T!!

arghhhhh

*red wine opener*

*red wine 2005*

*speaker and my phone*

*half way*

 

start vaining till my mood changed!

ps: i hope for nothing but better life ONLY..