(Friday, 06.09am)
Hello everybody! Good morning. I know it should be surprise that why am I blogging at this time. It’s because I didn’t sleep the whole time. I can’t sleep and don’t want to sleep too cause I’m waiting for my mom to wake up at 8 something and go to eat breakfast together. I know it is quite stupid for not sleeping at midnight but I’m used to it like somehow my friends called me “owl”. Lolx. I’ve just finish watching 3 shows, which is burning flame III (episode 13), a bride for a ride (episode 8) and one more English movie *erm I’m not sure what’s the title, sorry*. And now, I’m quite hungry so I just go out to eat one slice of bread and one bowl of mushroom soup. Prepare another ginseng tea for drinking too. For the whole time, I’m playing restaurant city on Facebook. Kind of addicted to that game. Don’t know why too. Maybe it’s fun. The last show that I’ve watched just now it’s something about a high school prom. While watching, I’m thinking about Cgl’s prom night when they are Form5. I feel kinda upset when I watch that show. I don’t have the chance to attend the prom night with my friends and also I never thought of I would miss the chance. When I’m there with them, we always talk about it and expect it to be a great and memorable night. But now, my plans are all gone. Never mind. I’m sure that we still have other better chance but hope things won’t change to bad. Nowadays, I’m not close with them anymore. Even my god sis tell me that she feel that way. Maybe it’s true that our friendship is now further from each other, I’m just wondering here whether are we going to stop contact each other as in not going to contact anymore after this. Of course I hope our friendship wouldn’t go till neither that bad nor far. But seriously, I don’t know how or what is the way to remain our friendship like how we used to. The caring, joy and laughter is no longer disappearing. I just feel that I’m not with them anymore. The most we can have or I can do is just one day fun and it’s only few months once. I could not manage to get the right time to visit them or maybe often visits them. Obviously they do not have the transport or time to come over my place. So maybe I should just forget about all of it or should I keep holding them? Sometimes it’s useless for me to hold them, many activities or outings that I’m not in with them. The things that happen whether it is happy or sad I could not participate and also I will always be the last one to know after I left. This is all not that I’m thinking negatively but it’s the fact and I can’t change it or lie to myself and pretend nothing happens. I just realize that I’m not lack of confident after I had move in instead of lack of support. I used to have my friend’s support whenever I’m doing something and I know they are always there for me but now I have to face all myself. It’s kinda sad to lose the support that I used to have it with me. Somehow it’s ok to me, I have faith and believe that I can handle my stuff by my own. I’m not trying to get my friends who really care about me to worry but it’s just that I’m expressing my thinking. I’ve made a promise to myself that I will always be happy and always smile and laugh no matter where I am and what happens. Oh ya, last night I missed out a chance to go Mois with my cousin. Wanted to go with her but too bad, I’m ill and for now my condition is better not going out at night. Sorry my dear will have a night with you later.
Will continue my blog after this..
Ps: (; going jogging later.. hey guys (to old friends), I’m not sure whether you guys still read my blog or not but if u do read, I just want to tell you guys that although anything happen, I will not forget you guys and the memories we had.
Once again Good Morning and Byes.
(Friday, 06.30am)
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