arggghhhh!!!

FUCKK!!!!!!
THE ITCHINESS DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!
ISHHHHHHHHH!!!!

ps:will continue my post some other time...xD.

morning post again.....

(Saturday, 05.28am)

Hello everyone!

I’m not going to sleep anymore and now I’m considering whether later want to go work or not. Last night I didn’t sleep too and early in the morning at 7.45 went for a jog around my house area. After jogging, walk to the nearest market and see whether anything to buy or not cause that is the 1^st time I been there. End up didn’t buy anything. While I walked pass one road to go back to my house, I saw a black dog. It stares at me for quite long and that time I’m holding my phone to take some pictures around there, so I took his picture too. Then when I walked pass it, he/she starts to bark and end up so many dogs come out. They chase after me, that time I was like so regret to take it picture. Lolx. But luckily, there is one lady who takes a broom out from her house and helped me. Thank god and the aunty too. When I reach home it’s already 8 something. Go in to my room for a while then waited for my mom to wake up. She wakes up at 8.50 and we went out to another market to buy some food then we had our breakfast somewhere there too. After that, we reach home at 9 something and my mom cooks her stuff so that she can bring it to work for her lunch. And I waited till 11.50 because I need to wake my dad ups to fetch my brothers. Once my dad goes out, I straight cook for my brothers so that later they don’t need to wait. After cooking for them, online for a while then after that around 3 something straight sleep d. my room that time was quite hot till I awake, I’m wondering that stupid air-cond is not working again so I moved to my mom’s room to sleep. Who knows, at night when I go back to my room only I saw that someone change the setting. Now my air-cond gets better. At night I wake up at 9 something and rush to go out to meet my friends. So, I asked my mom to fetch me out and then go to meet them. Come back around 10 something nearly 11 if I’m not mistaken. Cook mee and 1 plate of vegetables for my lunch/dinner cause whole day I didn’t eat anything yet. After that, talk to my parents for a while and chatted with friends during online. After that around 1 something watch Dim Sum Funeral, Ghost Mother (thai) and School days with a Pig (japan). These three shows all are quite different meaning. 1^st show is touching and learning from their mistakes and end up get back into one family. 2^nd show ain’t really that scary. It says that a brother has died because of someone kills him and his sister helps him to take care her 3 children but end up his sister also get killed by the person who has killed his brother. But her sister soul is still with the 3 children because she is worried about them and also she wants to take revenge to those people who kills her. 3^rd shows is about the teacher who teaches standard 6 students, he brings a pig along with him to school and adopt him, the school’s HM also allowed. So many students take care and play with the pig ever since it is young. One year later, they are going to graduate and don’t know what to do with the pig. Everyone sad and cry because at 1^st they planned to eat the pig when it is big but because of they all have feelings to the pig so they don’t want to do so and have many arguments among the students just because of the pig. End up they made their decision to sent the pig to somewhere where they chop the pig. Everyone cries and very sad too. Later going jogging again..xD

Ps: I will upload pictures later because streamyx works damn slow and I’m lazy to wait. XD. Good luck to my friends who are going to Queensbay to sell their handmade stuff. Gambateh!

(Saturday, 05.58am)

one whole night's post....

(Friday, 06.09am)

Hello everybody! Good morning. I know it should be surprise that why am I blogging at this time. It’s because I didn’t sleep the whole time. I can’t sleep and don’t want to sleep too cause I’m waiting for my mom to wake up at 8 something and go to eat breakfast together. I know it is quite stupid for not sleeping at midnight but I’m used to it like somehow my friends called me “owl”. Lolx. I’ve just finish watching 3 shows, which is burning flame III (episode 13), a bride for a ride (episode 8) and one more English movie *erm I’m not sure what’s the title, sorry*. And now, I’m quite hungry so I just go out to eat one slice of bread and one bowl of mushroom soup. Prepare another ginseng tea for drinking too. For the whole time, I’m playing restaurant city on Facebook. Kind of addicted to that game. Don’t know why too. Maybe it’s fun. The last show that I’ve watched just now it’s something about a high school prom. While watching, I’m thinking about Cgl’s prom night when they are Form5. I feel kinda upset when I watch that show. I don’t have the chance to attend the prom night with my friends and also I never thought of I would miss the chance. When I’m there with them, we always talk about it and expect it to be a great and memorable night. But now, my plans are all gone. Never mind. I’m sure that we still have other better chance but hope things won’t change to bad. Nowadays, I’m not close with them anymore. Even my god sis tell me that she feel that way. Maybe it’s true that our friendship is now further from each other, I’m just wondering here whether are we going to stop contact each other as in not going to contact anymore after this. Of course I hope our friendship wouldn’t go till neither that bad nor far. But seriously, I don’t know how or what is the way to remain our friendship like how we used to. The caring, joy and laughter is no longer disappearing. I just feel that I’m not with them anymore. The most we can have or I can do is just one day fun and it’s only few months once. I could not manage to get the right time to visit them or maybe often visits them. Obviously they do not have the transport or time to come over my place. So maybe I should just forget about all of it or should I keep holding them? Sometimes it’s useless for me to hold them, many activities or outings that I’m not in with them. The things that happen whether it is happy or sad I could not participate and also I will always be the last one to know after I left. This is all not that I’m thinking negatively but it’s the fact and I can’t change it or lie to myself and pretend nothing happens. I just realize that I’m not lack of confident after I had move in instead of lack of support. I used to have my friend’s support whenever I’m doing something and I know they are always there for me but now I have to face all myself. It’s kinda sad to lose the support that I used to have it with me. Somehow it’s ok to me, I have faith and believe that I can handle my stuff by my own. I’m not trying to get my friends who really care about me to worry but it’s just that I’m expressing my thinking. I’ve made a promise to myself that I will always be happy and always smile and laugh no matter where I am and what happens. Oh ya, last night I missed out a chance to go Mois with my cousin. Wanted to go with her but too bad, I’m ill and for now my condition is better not going out at night. Sorry my dear will have a night with you later.

Will continue my blog after this..

Ps: (; going jogging later.. hey guys (to old friends), I’m not sure whether you guys still read my blog or not but if u do read, I just want to tell you guys that although anything happen, I will not forget you guys and the memories we had.

Once again Good Morning and Byes.

(Friday, 06.30am)

blogging at 5something in the morning...

Hello! Morning.

At this time most of them should be sleeping and some maybe wake up and get ready to go school but I still didn’t sleep yet. Now it’s already 5.49 in the morning. I had finished watching movie at 3something and then whole time looking through my pictures and also arranging some of the files. Not sleeping yet because I don’t need to attend school as I have told before that I’m ill right now. So spend my time doing some stuff. Don’t know what time only going to sleep d. totally not tired nor sleepy. Anyway I know that my previous blog is kinda negative thinking. Maybe because of I’m moody that time and think too much. Hope it won’t happen again. Just now, which is Tuesday’s night, I just only finish re-arranging my room. Everything thing also change their position d. quite like the new arranging and feel comfortable with it. It’s easier for me to use the computer, do revision and sleep too. Haha. Just now I’ve been watching movie since 7something.actually wanna blog and online wan but that fucking streamyx so slow and the connection is like shit so I don’t want to waste time waiting for the tortoise connection. So finish watching few funny movies and of course it’s a nice movie too. I’ve watched The Young Victoria, Dadnapped, 17AGAIN, Burning Flame 3, A Bride for A Ride, Easy Fortune Happy Life (Taiwan movie) and one more is about cooking from HK, I only know the chinese title of the show because they never write out the English title in internet. . All are funny movies except for burning flame 3 and the young Victoria. Dadnapped is a new movie and I downloaded it few days ago only. It’s really a nice show. You guys must watch it. xD. 17again I bet most of them have watch and it’s really a nice and touching show. The rest also is a nice show la. Seems like I’m promoting all the show. haha.

Ps: haha. gonna be my turn to sleep after this..xD.. Actually is a must to sleep before my mom wake up, if not she is going to nag till non-stop. XD those who are going to school, hope u guys have a great day in school and for those working, enjoy working. Good nights.

the month of July 2009

July?? What can I say about the month of July 2009? To others I don’t know what will they feel about this month, but to me I can say that is a bad month to me. Though I’m happy and also enjoy the day when I’m in Cgl. But it’s only ONE-day fun. After that, I keep fall sick, everyday also this and that kind of illness. When this is cure, another comes. It’s so bad luck. From the start of this year till now, this is the 1^st months I keep on fall sick, but now, the illness I’m having is more terrible than the illness I used to have. From cough, stomach pain, fever, vomit, and so on, I’ve suffered enough. But now? It’s more terrible! This illness brings a lot of problem to me. Food and drinks are all controlled! Time? It’s like a curfew set by my parents. I can’t go anywhere. Everyday stays at home like a stupid people doing nothing. Can’t attend school for several days. Homework and lessons are all left out. Exam is coming soon. Everything is in a rush and now only I get this, I’m almost crazy d. This illness really drives me crazy! I hope that someone that is close to me will concern me, but it is unexpected that they don’t even find me. I don’t know whether they are busy or what. I don’t want to know anymore. Nowadays people who are really sweet and concern to me is only 2guys. I feel so happy that at least there is still someone who really cares about me unlike the others. I’m not trying to say anything that is bad to hurt them, but this is the fact. I’m not going to tell them anything. They wanna care or not I’m not going to give a damn on it. I’m so fed-up and feel so hopeless right now. How much I wish that I could immediately die right now! I don’t want to suffer all those pain!!!!!! Wind is the best word to describe my emotions. Sometimes it’s windy, sometimes is strong. Same like how I feel right now. I’m quite bad temper nowadays. What can I do? I don’t want this entire thing to happen! I avoid from talking to anyone because I know that I’m not in a mood. I might simply scold people. I know I talk quite rude to my friends who are trying to talk to me even my mom too. I’m really sorry. I don’t mean that but I can’t control my temper. Help!! When only can I cure?? FUCK! Where is all the happy moment and sweet memory?? I don’t want to be ILL ANYMORE!!!!!! It makes me turn back to emo! I look through all the pics when I’m with my family and it makes me think that I don’t belong to this family. Ever since I’m young, every pic that includes my parents sure I’m not smiling and laughing. I don’t know why and so I just realize. I’m wondering do they actually really care about me? Today I’m like invincible to them, I know I’m in a bad mood but why are they not concerning me or even ask what happen? What is this????? Everything seems dark again. I want to leave!

BLOGGING DAY + bored day..

Today didn’t go to school AGAIN! Just because of my hair, I’m like wanted inside school. Just felt that way though none of the teacher catches me yet. But I’m going to do something over it. Either dye another color or maybe will spray some black color over it. haix. Pity. Then stay at home whole day, mom asked me to go work but I did not. I just play games and blog only. So bored. Hmm, then took some pics too. Gonna upload it. hehe. At 9 something rain for a while only, then stop. Haix. Nothing much to blog about d. And today is jas’s brother birthday. Wish him happy birthday here. XD

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enjoying my last piece of cake
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the 1st time dye red hair to school...(kinda afraid)

This morning when I wake up, I feel so afraid to go school. Wondering I should late to school or how? End up I was thinking if I go late, I would be safe cause I don’t need to attend assembly and the chances for me to get caught is less. But who knows, when I purposely late to school, everyone get caught. When I go through the front gate, the prefect stops me and asked me to go discipline room. I was shocked and I thought it’s because of my hair. Then another girl stands beside him, she asked me to straight go class. Then that guy gives me a serious look. So I decided to go to the discipline room. But then before I go there, I went to toilet to tie my hair up all. After that, I walked to the discipline’s room. But inside there, not even a discipline teacher is inside. So I walked out and decided to go back classroom. But who knows? The assembly finished, but those who are late got caught and also few students. So I bravely walked there and stand, waiting for the discipline teacher to scold and give a long lecture. Too bad, it’s not like what I thought. Everyone stood there for quite long and the discipline teacher keep checking over us. Two of the malays get scolded because of their shoelace. It’s something like cross over but not the ribbon type. I tied my shoelace that type too. I start to afraid. That discipline teacher says that is too fashion and we did not respect school and so on. Then he shouts at that 2 malays and asked them to tie their shoelace back into ribbon. Mine, he just stared at me for a while but didn’t say anything about my shoelace. After 15-20 minutes lecture and scolding, he wanted to let us go back to class. But another busybody discipline teacher say cannot yet, end up everyone get 10 demerits. Stand outside the discipline room for 20minutes because there are quite a numbers of students have to get “rotan” cause of some reasons. One by one go in to the discipline room to get “rotan”. So painful, for guys will get at their buttocks then girl will just get at their palm. After that only our turn to go in the room, but it’s not one by one, its whole group. We just go in and write our name then can go back to class d. it’s so surprising that they didn’t say anything about my hair colour. Thank God. XD. Then went home at 1something. Mom suddenly called me when I reached home, she asks me to go work cause one of her worker suddenly sick and go home. So I say ok and then after a while go to work. After working, me and my mom went to Jusco to buy something, then went to Secret Recipe again to buy cheese cake! Cheese cake again! Ahah. Really fall in love with cheesecake d. After that went to fetch my little bro from his baby sitter house then only go back.

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the best day of July

Today was such a great, fun and enjoying day to me. If I’m not mistaken today will be the best day of July. It’s too fast to predict the best day in this month. But I can feel it and I guess my predication will not be wrong. XD. Last night I already come to penang and we overnight at our pg’s house. Yesterday was raining heavily since evening. At night when we are on the way back to penang from bm, everywhere also flood. It takes a long time for us to reach home cause everywhere also traffic jam. When we reached home, it’s already 12am something. After that bath and chat with jas for a while then sleep d. the next day, which is today. I’m so busy starting from the time I wake up, which is 10 something. I bath and make up then waiting for my mom to come back and fetch me to saloon that I had already make an appointment yesterday. So after that by 11.25 we reached the saloon, my mom dye and me our hair and my mom just slightly cut a bit only. Mom dyes something like brown mix with green a bit (Light green). I decided to dye dark brown that is not so obvious to be seen and cut my fringe too. But when the color came out, me and my mom was so shocked. We looked at each other and our expression is like very surprising, my color turns out to be reddish/maroon/dark purple. Something like that, it’s not like what I expected to be. At that moment, two feelings pop-up, which is I felt happy and sad at the same time. Kinda happy cause that colors looks not bad, sad because I don’t know how to go to school tomorrow. It’s so obvious that my hair is not dark brown or maybe natural brown. Never mind. Just follow the flow. But I’m really worried. Don’t know what to do. After that it’s already 1 something. So my mom dropped me at convent green lane (cgl). I walked in the primary door. Passed through canteen then walked to secondary to find my friends. When I walk pass through the secondary science lab, I saw Adilla and Waizah. Give them a hug then asked them where is jaslyn and chingy. So they tell me that they are in 4 Bestari. So I tell them will find them later and straight walked to 4 Bestari to look for my bestie. XD. When I go in, I saw Jaslyn, Chingy, Vivian, Shanie and Sing Yeh. Jaslyn and Chingy were just sitting down and chat then Vivs was singing and the other two was playing with their guitar and singing too. They are getting ready for their singing competition. *Wish them good luck*. After that, me, Jaslyn and Chingy planning to go Mcd! So we headed there. Walked and talk and laugh till we reached. Mcd looks really nice and unique after the renovation but it is kinda squeezing inside there. Saw few juniors that I don’t really likes them. And because of my hair colors, everyone gave me a weird look. If I’m not mistaken, they must be thinking that I stop schooling or I get kicked out. but I just ignore them. So after that we went up to look for places to sit. We saw Chantri, Muhanniz, and Sarah too. They were sitting there eating and chatting. They asked us to join them but we didn’t. We sit at another table. For a while, we go down to make an order cause everyone was hungry. Waited for quite long, some more very hot till sweating and my colors come out together with the sweat. Haha. After ordering and getting our food, we went up back and WTH, our places had been sit by other guys. So we decided to sit with Chantri and others. Sitting there eating, chatting, laughing and met Fennie, Py, Vann and few of them and also 2 new girls. There is one boy with his parents sitting the next table beside us, he is so damn cute and we decided to move his parents away and kidnap him *joking only*. XD. Around 3, we walked back to Cgl with Jaslyn cause she needs to take rapid that will come at 3.30. So we walked in to the classroom to take bags then only go to bus stop to wait for Jaslyn to go back. While waiting, en call me but I did not pick up cause didn’t realize there is a call from her. So I asked chingy to msg her. Wanted to meet en and family but no fate. So will meet them next time.

Now jas has already gone back, so chingy and me back to the classroom. After a while we start to take video then while taking video, Viv, Shanie, and Sing Yeh went back, so left chingy and me. We take a few videos inside the class. After taking videos, we walked to basketball court and play basketball and take videos and pics too. At 3 something, Adilla, Waizah and Hakimah came and join us after playing waters. They are so wet after that they go off to bath. Then only Sarah, Chantri and Muhanniz came to basketball court from Mcd. We had lots of fun and take pics with them. Some pics are with Chantri. Will get it from her soon. Then by 4 something, I went back d. mom come and picked me up and then we go to Queesbay. Go there change clothes and then only go to eat. Looked for lots of food. End up mom chooses to go Dave’s Deli. So we ate there. After that went to buy clothes and shoes for my lil brother then go down to groceries place then only went to eat ice-cream (haggen dazs). Yummy yummy! After that it’s already 7 something. Contact with my dad and then went back home to fetch two of my brothers to go had dinner with them. Whole day eat eat eat. Gonna increase don’t know how many kilo’s. xD. Then at night went to town and had dinner, I just eat some vege, praw, fish and soup. No more rice. At this is the 1^st time we ordered tea for drinks, credits to my bro. Ahaha. After dinner, we went back to Bm and start to worried about my hair color again. Pray hardly! That’s my one whole day…

mcd for lunch.

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me and dewitt
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me and chingy in 4 Bestari
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me and chingy in basketball court
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chingy with the ball
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yin with the ball
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me and chingy (2)
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all of us (me, chingy, chantri, muhanniz and sarah)
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from right> sarah, chantri and muhanniz. ( chantri is trying to get the ball from sarah )
chantri is shooting the ball
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me and chingy (3)
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sarah is too free to sweep all the dust

chantri, sarah and chingy
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sarah and yin

yin and muhanniz
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muhanniz and chingy

me and chingy (4)
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candid shot
chantri, chingy and yin

me and chingy (5)
she hugged me tightly..xD
what is she trying to do? *insane* guess she loves my boops..
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the tiny cute plants..
CGL
did u saw that doggie? it supposed to be cute if its clean..xD
yellow flower..
chingy and chantri pluck it..

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on the way going to queens!
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eating in Dave's Deli with my lil bro and mom
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right in front of me is Wong Kok Kitchen
beside is the poster (GOOD FOOD)

finally order served
mom's order (1/4 chicken)
mine (mix grilled)
finish!

went to buy cakes

marble cheese for me (from Secret Recipe)

fruit cake for my lil bro (from Bread History)
king's sweet potato (if i'm not mistaken)
my favourite ice cream (haggen dazs) madacamia nut..

eating chu-char somewhere at town
tea for drinks
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the end! thanks for viewing yin's blog..