replying something to my friend.

I’m saying hi to one of my dear friend. i read your blog and wanna send you message. but i guess it will be too long and i'm sure you will read my blog. so i'll reply here la. Just wanna tell you that no matter what happen, you can come to me anytime. I’m always there for you though I’m not standing beside you. So no worries, I’ll help you anytime you need. U can lie but don’t take make it as a habit to you cause I’m sure that you know it’s not a good habit. About “her” I’m speechless la. I can’t say anything because we have already know her for so long and also we know her more than enough d. so just leave it lo. It’s true with that dude’s word. Everyone changing but no matter how we change we are still friends. Ok? I make it a promise to you that our friendship will never end till the end of our life. I’ll always continue this happy feeling through my life cause I’ve already make up my mind to be happy. I’m not old yoke neither sad yoke. I’m new right now! Everything stops there and starts here for my new life. How hard it is, I’ll still be strong to walk through that road. This is something that someone teaches me. It takes time for me to think now. After my birthday, I’ve got my decision to choose my life. I won’t be sad for all the time. Trust me! Okay?? Anyway sorry ya, that night after talking and you are late for xxx. Haha.. I can see that you are more crazy, excited and happier than me though it’s my birthday. I guess on your birthday you will be happier. Choose one day, I’ll go back Penang to celebrate all of us birthday together. Whether it’s late or earlier than our birthday date also never mind cause that’s one of my wish that I make during my birthday. Btw, once in a while wearing like this also never mind la hor? Haha.. nowadays you are hawt too! Am I right?? Haha..xD

maxis meeting 2009

Today I didn’t go to school as I have already wrote it here before this. I didn’t go to school it’s because I went for a maxis meeting 2009. The meeting held in sunway convention at 4th floor. Most of the people who attend this meeting are all boss. This meeting is about how to do business and more. It starts at 10.00 and end at 12.30. After that, they had prepared a buffet lunch. So after eating the lunch only go back to work. Actually it’s kind of boring to listen to that Mr. Xx talking. But it’s fun to have the buffet there. All the food is so delicious. Mmmmmmmm… I took some picture during the meeting.

maxis dealers meeting

why are we the no.1 operator for both postpaid & prepaid? lolx..

what does hotlink provide for all of us??

the guy who are wearing white T is our speech man.

all hotlink dealers~~

lastly, he is our boss. hotlink/maxis boss! after he give some speech then the meeting end and everyone go for lunch.

hahax.. end with my pic..know why? coz this is my blog..lolx..just crapping here..

by yin..

may 7th!

Dear readers, today I feel so happy. Do you know that there is something special on may 7^th?? But I guess to myself only, not everyone. Cause it’s YIN’’S BIRTHDAY! I have celebrated my birthday for so many years. The only time I feel real happy during my birthday is this year and also when I’m 4 years old. This year I feel so happy and excited. The day before my birthday, which is on may 6^th. I planned to sleep early cause I feel so tired and birthday to me is nothing special on that moment. But it’s not like what I think. I always think that I’m leaving my old friend and they had forgotten me, but the fact is they still care and remember me. I feel so happy and touched. I’m also thinking whether is it that I always think too much? Lolx. On may 6^th,so many people call me and send me message to wish me Happy Birthday! I feel so happy. All my friends keep calling me. I’ve been on the phone start at sharp 10.00pm till 2.00am. Surprise right? I talked to my friends for 4 hours. I feel that is quite crazy. But I enjoy talking to them cause all of them is my friend that quite a period didn’t contact d. everyone busy with their life. Anyway after talking to them I feel real happy. We laughed and smile together. Though I didn’t meet them but I still can feel they are beside me and always beside me. Before this, I don’t feel happy or excited at all. Cause I guess it’s not going to be a happy day to me. This year happen so many things so I thought that my birthday also wouldn’t be a fun day. But unexpected, I had loads of fun! One of them who call me. She keeps laughing and I can feel that she is more excited than me though is my birthday. Anyway I also feel happy and excited after that. Many people wishes me happy birthday. Now I realize that so many people do remember my birthday and I feel so happy when people wishes me whether I know them or not. Something likes friendster friends. They wishes me happy birthday. Though I know or don’t know them, I still feel very happy. Ahaha..xD.. It’s been a long time I didn’t felt this feeling d. after transferring school and moving here. I feel that it bring a lot of sadness to me. But now at least I feel some happiness. This time I really laugh and smile out through my heart. I’m not acting to be happy. Many people ask me, “how u celebrate your birthday?” I feel that this is a very common questions that everyone asked. Let me tell you guys something, today I changed a lot of shirts and dress. I went out and come back for so many times. And I also don’t know how many times I bathe. I woke up at 2something cause I’m too tired last night. I’m on the phone with my friends till 2 and continue chatting with my friends and cousin in msn. After chatting I watch movie till 4 or 5 something if I’m not mistaken. *I didn’t attend school*. Haha.. lazy right? But once a while only, in addition, it’s my birthday! Haha.. After bathing which is 3 something, I went out with my so-called cousin. We went to have coffee and shop. After that I come back home and do my homework and also replying friendster comment, chatting and also watching movie. Till evening, my family and me went to a restaurant to had dinner. Not bad. Unexpected I met my cousin’s boyfriend there. I’m so surprised! So I come back again. Doing the same thing, which is online but not doing homework cause, I’ve finished doing it. Then till late night, I went out with my friend again. We went to have drinks and went to my friend house for a while then only they fetch me back. I reached home at 3 something almost 4. Then I go take a bath. Then I’m blogging right now. It’s already 4 something. Tomorrow I’m not going to school again cause I’m going to somewhere. Not writing it out. haha..xD. anyway I should be like last time. Happy always. I make a promise to myself and swear to God. I wanna live a happy life! all my dear hon and friends. Good nitez! Sweet dream!!!!

all my pics!!

take 1

take 2~



sweet 16..


when im going out with my cousin~







went out for dinner with family~





my birthday cake~




went out at night with friends~

hapie burfday VIV!

Hey Viv, hope you will enjoy your birthday. Happy sweet16. haha.xD. so long didn’t meet you d and i miss you and miss hugging you too. but don’t worry I’ll always remember you and your birthday cause you are my best friend. In addition, your birthday is earlier than me 2 days only. So it's easy for me to remember. xD Temporary or maybe for a long time I’ll not going back to CGL anymore. Anyway sorry that I didn’t call you or message you to wish you cause of some private reason la. So I’ll just post it in my blog and wish you happy birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

this pic remind me some memories. i took it for you on 17th of june 2008. that day we were baking cookies which most of the cookies can't be eat. but quite fun on that day. i'll always remember the day i had fun with you.

loves,
..yin..

tuesday, 10.35

Now is 10.35am. Wondering I’m absent from school? Lolx. No la. I went this morning but go back early cause today my dad won’t be here to fetch me back at 1.45pm. So I’m forced to go back early and come to work. It’s better than I’m absence from school right? Finally I get my exam table. It takes 8days for mid-year exam. So long! But it’s already better than my expectation cause I thought it would take more than 10days time. To me it’s only 8 days but to others is 9days. Know why? Cause the one more day is Chinese exam which I’m not taking. So I guess I won’t go to school and will stay at home studying lo. Feel afraid. The only subject that I feel that I’m going to score is English and account only. The others I don’t dare to think. All also have essays. In addition, it’s in malay. My Bm not that pro yet. xD. What can I do? The subject that I’m sure gonna fail is maths and add maths. I’m not going to put so much effort on it. I rather study other subjects that I think I can score it. Am I right or wrong? This Thursday I’m not going to school and early in the morning I’m going to penang market to buy fresh veges, fish ball, meat and others cause it’s a special day to me. Why am I not feeling excited at all? I don’t know. Cause that special day since 2009 onwards it’s meaningless. Though is a special day to everyone but now no more to me. That’s all for today lo. Cause there’s no more thing to blog. Will continue blogging when I have stuff to tell…

Feel unpleasant in my life!

After what I had observed, I really agree with my thinking and also there is stuff proves to me that I’m out from this world. I’m no longer to be their friend anymore. I’m out from them. I make some promise to myself but I won’t tell here cause I’m learning to keep stuff to myself. Last time I can’t but now MUST try to keep everything to myself cause everyone is busy with their life and not going to have anytime to listen to my story. I can see things clearly. Who are real and who are fake, I still know how to differentiate. I don’t wanna bother their life anymore. And all I can do from this second onwards is make myself used to be “solo”. I can’t lie on anyone’s shoulder anymore. What Is “LIFE”?? The period between birth and death? Who can tell me what will happen to this world if everyone thinks that lifeless is the best? I really can’t imagine what will happen. Why are all peoples so fake? Backstab here and there, is it fun? I just can’t imagine how people act in their daily life. Won’t they feel suffer? It exists nevertheless. Can I just ask people around me to fuck off? I know I can’t cause it’s too rude. In addition, there are no differences whether I ask them to fuck off or not. Cause they are leaving me so long time d. they fade away right in front of me or I’m the one who already fade away to them? All the lie u made to me it will always be remembered in my mind. No worries, I won’t take revenge cause I feel so tired to be in life. There’s no need for me to take revenge anymore. What will I get after taking revenge? Get to go to meet my great grandparents earlier than it was? Ahah.. Nonsense! What I do will never change the fact that it was apparently happen right in front of my eyes. I’m going to cancel all appointment that I have made. I don’t want to meet anyone anymore. Whether is good or bad, true or fake is no more important to me. It doesn’t change my life at all. Maybe I don’t know how to describe my real feeling that is inside my heart and my mind. All I can say is I’m SO SAD! Who am I suppose to hate? I can’t blame to anyone cause my life is arranged by the God. Who is more powerful than GOD? Please appear right in front of me cause I need your help to change my life or just delete all my memories! Happy or sad memories I don’t want to remember anymore. I just wanna clear all my memory. Lastly, 3 days more to my birthday. So what?? Do I look like I’m so happy or excited? I’m not at all. Don’t even know how to celebrate. And you! Why u changed? I thought you wouldn’t. But it’s a disappointment. Break the promises that we made. You are a liar!

so sick of life!

What types of feeling should I write in my blog after Wednesday? Maybe happy and angry only cause that’s the only feeling I had. Angry just because of my parents that they deny it when they are wrong. Why they just blame on me and if others don’t know they really think it’s my fault. Never mind cause they talk to me back. Anyway happy stuff more, firstly sms with my sis past few days. Very long we didn’t sms d. maybe she’s busy. She had planned to do so many things. Hope she will not be too tired during holidays. This few days I have been thinking why am I so down and why do I cut? Used to it? Maybe I shouldn’t say that I used to it. I’m trying so hard to be positive thinking but I know that it won’t last long in my mind. I’m trying to make it stay and don’t go away. I wanna have a happy life but not the life that is always sad and crying inside dark room. But what can I do when I can’t control? Someone teach me please. It’s not easy to just control our feeling. Have you ever tried? Maybe can just control one or twice but not every time. If everyone can control their feeling and not thinking negative then there will be anyone who suicide. Am I right my dear friends? Sometimes not everything we can change easily. Clothes and food we can just change it at anytime but not out fate. Peoples tell me before that we can change everything but I guess they are wrong. Wanna know why am I so down? It’s because I can’t accept the fact that all my friends are leaving me and one by one forgetting me. I know many peoples forget who is yin. Yin is dead right now. My sis told me that teachers, friends and so many people still remember me. But I know it’s a lie. What can I do? She even tells me that I’m famous. Famous like what? I’m not famous at all. I’m not even worth for anyone to remembered who am I. What a pathetic yin. < This is what others will say. I know I’m in a bad life and sometimes I feel I’m not a normal human. Many things I know that I’m different from others. I really want to know who am I. What did I do in my previous life? How am I supposed to know all my past? So sick of life cause I don’t even know when is the end of my life. sobx. *sigh*