31st of december

31st? new year??

its a nightmare to me!!!

i seriously fcuking hate 31st!

*surprise??*

eveyone was like so happy cause the next day is going to be a new year..

and everything gonna have a new start...

new life, new things, new environment and more...

but to me, its always a bad luck day...

was like so happy planning my stuff but end up everything ruined up..

so when my family go out, i stay at home...

i don't want anything bad to happen AGAIN

last year the same thing happened to me...

so i'm always alone during 31st..

but i swear to myself that this is not going to happen again!

its gonna be the last year and 2010, i'm going to carry on my plan..

LOL

when im alone at home watching movie, i feel the loneliness..

out of sudden, feel like drinking beer or red wine..

but too bad, i've drank all so there's no more wine...

only left one champagne, so i just drink it only..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

new year+new life...

=)

ps: imy

29th of december

today is my outing with J...

went out at 10something, didn't go to work cause shopping mode is ON!

once i go out, i will go out frequently...

its like addicted to it...LOL

today also go to gurney, but meet J for couple hours only...

went to saloon, clinic and so on..

end up, reached gurney at 2something...

meet J + his cousin and we went to watch "sherlock holmes"..

quite interesting + bored movie...

not bad also la...LOL

after that, headed to Sega for our dinner i guess...

ordered a bucket of heineken and sandwich only...

 sitting there till 7something and went in to cold storage...

that's the first time i went in there...

J bought the stuff he wants and i bought cookies from Famous Amos...

after that, we went home already..

aunt fetch me back to ferry and my parent is picking me up...

so reached around 8 something...

went to Krico to meet all my cousins...

just to have a dinner with them and i guess its also a farewell party for my cousin who is going back to Singapore..

went to a thai restaurant...the food there was delicious...

*yummy yummy*

after the dinner its already 11 something, so we went to auto city...

was planning to have a drink at B.E.D but end up didn't enter cause of some reason...

so everyone just go back home..

reached home around 12something..

was expected to go back later but end up go back so early..

LOL

before gurney...

in gurney and after gurney..

i was like changing 3 shirts in a day...crazy right? LOL

ps: had a great time with everyone..

i love and hope everyday

of my life can be like today...

28th of december

it was a real boring day today..

didn't know what am i suppose to do..have no work..

was walking up and down, left and right, watching movie, chatting, and smsing...

besides that, i play and bully my friends too..

its like a very bad habit i know, but i just can't stop bullying them..

xp..

while sitting down, i think a lot of stuff..

school, friends, and relationship..

firstly, i feel next year gonna be a very tough year..

at the same time i feel happy and sad...

cause its gonna be my last year in high school and sad because spm is just right in front of me!

*its killing me!*

friends, i guess i don't have any problem..

even the one i have problem also solved it already...

but im looking and listening to my friend's relationship problem..

its like i don't understand how they manage to endure their partner which treated them so bad..

what a waste that their partner didn't appreciate their love..

*haix*

but none of my business..cause i don't need a relationship right now...

LOL

ps: i have feeling towards you

but i just can't accept you anymore..

 sorry..

27th of december

today im super tired!! wake up at 6.45am!

*its killing me*

cause i only sleep for like 3hours +...so damn tired!

but have to wake up no matter what cause my mom is angry that last night i came home late..

went to see doctor early in the morning and then only get back to work..

it was like so damn bored and tired..

totally don't have the mood to work...

school reopening soon...left 7days..which is ONE week only!

i didn't even buy my school stationary, shoes, bad and so on...

study mood: OFF!

school mood: OFF too!!

so damn lazy to get back to school...

i was feeling happy + sad...

cause its going to be the last year and also the most scariest year! 

i'm facing my dearest husband, Mr. Spm..!!!

need help!! pray and hope that i can manage to get a good results..

i don't want to get lousy results anymore!

26th of december

yesterday morning, i woke up at 8 something..

cause i need to get ready to go out with my friends!

meeting jas later..feel so bloody happy!!!

didn't hang out with her for couple months already...just can't wait to see her..

reached gurney at 11something, meet jas at secret recipe then we walked around..

after that, went to breeks for lunch...

jas, chingy and yin...

 jas and yin...

 yinyin*the blogger*

sitting, talking, joking and eating too...waited for chingy at the same time..

then later on meet liann, adrian and mel..

went to watch "couple retreats"..

and its a 18pl show, *worrying that they can't enter*

but end up they can..

it was a very funny show...was laughing most of the time..LOL

after the movie, we went for a walk and later on jas, liann, mel, and adrian is going back...

so left me, chingy and her god bro..

we walked around, goes in and out the bra shop..

yinyin and chingy...

then end up go to play snooker...

chingy was a real bad player..*sorry, i know she's gonna whack me if she saw this*

she seriously just simply play and move the ball as she wants...

*this is so bad, chingy* =P

and finally she knows how to play a bit...LOL

at 6 something, san reached d...so he joined us..

went to buy "alvin and the chipmunks" ticket...

while buying the ticket, chingy was sitting on the floor watching movie and sms-ing..

look at her!!!

she is like so damn daring to sit in the middle of it...*nuts*

then go for dinner since we still have the time...

decided to go Mcd, but end up we went to "nando's"

*the view from top*

was talking, talking and joking till forget about our movie and end up, we are late!

it was another funny movie, they're all so cute...LOL

after the movie, went down to cold storage and he bought "big apple's donuts"

walked out to gurney drive and go to mcd after that...

waited till 10 something, then he left and i go out with M..

we went to batu ferringi "hard rock"..

we had our planned but inside there is like nothing much so we go back to gurney...

went to island red with M and later on walked to Martini to meet M's friend..

saw Cheng Kah Weng at Martini!!!

so damn shock..he is so f***ing handsome!!!!! arghhh

and end up, reached home around 2something and slept at 3 something...

ps: i'm afraid to love you back...

25th of december

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

this year i feel much better than last year..

cause during x'mas eve and x'mas, i stayed inside hospital..

that's the first year i stayed in hospital.. =(

but this year, im going to celebrate my bro's bday with family..

if its not because of celebrating his bday, i'll be going to kl with my friends d..

but i guess this will be the last year for me to celebrate with him..

cause next year i'm going out with friends...

*hooray!!*

so we went to town for steamboat...

was like so damn full and after that we go to gurney drive just to buy some stuff..

then back to home..

had a very great and fattening dinner and i just can't wait for the next day outing...

LOL

while inside the car....

bro's bday cake from BH..

its quite nice..inside filled with chocolate....yummmy!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRO!!

ps: im not sure what im doing..

dont even know what im thinking..

=(

21st of december

last night around this time i was drinking red wine..

*same for tonight*

on that moment, i'm so sad and down..

however, its much better than the night before y'day..

i just feel so sad because of ........i don't know why am i feeling this way..

i just hope that everything is a misund and start all over again...its so suffering to pass through my daily life with all those unwanted feelings..

when can i let it off? do i deserve to be so sad??

LOL

i just can't stop all the questions in my head..

who's gonna answer me?

the tears in my eyes won't dry...what am i suppose to do??

school starts will help me isn't it? IDK

so complicated...feel so ***ked up with ma life..

though ..... isn't my cup of tea but i'm so happy when i'm with ....

from outlooks, i know i can never accept ... but if its inside heart, i can accept .. fully..

though its impossible to make my wish come true but i hope i can get over it..

maybe TIME its the only thing that will proves to me whether i'm wrong or right...

ps: wanna thanks to those who really care for me..

anyway i'm feeling better d..

so no worries...

imy

11th of december

today i'm back to work..finally..

actually im so tired and dont wanna come..

but just because of some reasons so i go to work..

my back was like very pain till i can't even turn my body..

so today come here was just like sitting, watching movie, talking and joking..

after 3 days trip, finally i see you back..

how much i hope that the first person to see its you..

but too bad..u're the last one showed up..=(

its okay la..still saw you..i'm satisfied already..

things didn't changed much..just that tonight he didnt sms me anymore..

wondering is it because of everyday also get to meet up d, so no more chatting...

i'm so sad for something..

*not gonna mention it here* >-<

after working, i went to fun fair..

i seems like so childish when im there...

im so crazy for the big bears!

unfortunately, how much i spend also couldn't get the bear i want!

ish!!!!

*angry*

went back home bath and everything..then sleep..

still didn't receive any of his msg..

maybe i should just give up...

ps: is there any chance for us?

i just want you to stay the same..

i love the way you treat me..

u're so sweet...imy!

10th of december

finally its my last day trip..

not going anywhere because i will be back by 2pm..

so woke up at 8 something..

can't wait to go back sleep cause i can't sleep well here..

maybe because of different environment..

no matter how tired i'm, i still can't sleep..

this makes my eyes getting more like panda eyes!

haha..

everyone quickly go to bath and pack everything...

while waiting, i took pics again,..HAHA..

 

went out from the condotel at 11something...

*inside the lift and outside the front door*

by 12, the taxi arrived...so we take taxi to malacca central..

reached there almost 1pm d..

so we quickly stop at one shop for our lunch..

i tried the chicken rice ball as they said that its in round shape..

its really delicious..not bad..should try if you didn't try yet...

after eating, went to washroom and all then we walked to the bus park..

*inside the bus*

ps: start to worried and miss you..

i don't know what you're feeling towards me..

and you're real or fake i also don't know..

i want an answer so badly!

missss you!!