IDK what's happening?

well, this few days happen too many stuff that can say i aspect it to happen but maybe not so much..haix..maybe i did really did something wrong and maybe not..my thinking is so blur...yesterday i went to her house and settle some stuff...but end up that's not a good ending..i don't know who is betraying me right now!!! and i don't know what will i do even tho if i get to know the truth..coz both of them also i care n love..i really don't want this to happen..but i know her attitude..she cared for her family so muchh...so if really that she betray me also i wont blame on her..cause in another way she's helping ___..tho i don't blame on her, but i really feel so disappointed cause i ask her not to tell anything out..haix..so speechless in my life!!!!!!!! another 1 is if i really find out that he is creating story also i don't know what am i going to do..who can i trust right now?? i also dunno since when i become like this..i'm so fucking disappointed with everything!!!

live in a short life, your pain will be less

yesterday i'm really sad..i think back of everything that happen to me..i dunno why must this been happening to me..did i actually did something wrong in my last life or before this..can someone tell me..every time when i start a new life, i give myself a chance to go a brighter place time, i fail to pass through it..I'll never success in a bright place..so is it that i must hide myself inside a black dark place to hide from everything in this world?? why is it that the god is SO unfair to me?? I'm not playing anyone anymore..and i wont also..but when I'm serious there's no good ending for me..so am i going to be a player for the rest of my life..i don't want to hide away from anything cause i dun wan to be a looser to anyone or anything i did in my life..i can't accept the fact of mines..the past 3 years words from that guy i really trust him..i cant don't trust it..cause its the fact..but am i going to pass through my life all the time like that?? i wanna change my life..i don't want to be like this...but there's no one can help me...if there's someone that can pull me out from the dark place but i know that there's no one can help me in the bright place..so let me hide inside for the rest of my life..CZ i dun wan to suffer any pain that i really cant stand for it..

latest pic...

im bored!!







im thinking of U..



CAN U SEE ME??

yinyin is..............................

this is me..this is also the first time i start blogging..its also cause i feel like wanna express out my feelings here..i kinda feel sad to think..i dun even dare to think..i feel i cant handle it..i also dunno what the hell is going in my life..i feel so lost..what should i do and where should i go? i hope that there's someone could tell me..
L stands for my surname..

guess what's the taste of my lip..wanna try to taste it..xD


shhh...i'll tell you the story later..it's kinda funny...


oh ya, this is my new hairstyle..any opinion?