feel sad

hmm..today was my 1st day in new sch...the feeling that i never had before for so many years...im so sad!!!!!!!! i leave all my pg friends and all....hmm...i totally cant accept my new sch cause its so much different from my old sch...its like hell and heaven..i don't know how am i going to continue my study there..i'm afraid that i will stop everything..i don't have the feeling of fighting over everything that i want..i don't know what to do..haix..all the ppl there is like indian guys more and chinese girls more..chinese guy is exactly like all the outsiders say wan "ah beng beng and tu kau"...indian guy freaking irritating..chinese girls all speak in chinese..what a kind of sch is this...i also don't know..i tell my mom..but my mom keep asking me to continue...no 1 is helping me...this is not what i want for this year..its so disappointed...my wish turn into a shit...what the fuck is this? i hate this...friends ask me to smile, be happy and all...but how am i going to be happy in this condition..its like a shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wish i can go back to my old sch back..i miss everything there...the food, the teachers, and my friends and sis that waiting for my return.....but i can't do anything d..all i can do is to think how am i going to pass through my life now...its like they already destroy my plan..and i need time to think...what will happen in this sch i won't know...WHO CAN HELP ME!!!!! I HATE THIS SCH FOR GOD SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!! this is even worst than a nightmare....the dream that is real and i can't change the fact...in another way is i have to accept it!!!!!!!!!
will continue my nightmare stories some other time la..tata...love every1!!!!!